UrbanDictionary.com defines the term ‘poetry slam‘ as
“a type of poetry, usually a competition, expressing the personal story and/or struggle of the poet, usually in an intensely emotional style.
Very powerful, sincere, and moving.”
Now I’ve seen many a poetry slam and have always admired the courage and guts it takes to get up in front of a group of mostly strangers and lay all your ‘stuff’ out there for all to judge. I don’t think I could actually DO that – do you?
For me anyway, when I feel wobbly and shaky, and the committee chatter from my broken parts (i.e., the voices that talk at us or the words/names that are thrown at us in our heads) is loud and chaotic, that I need to have my own slam…
Its been confirmed by multiple sources, including myself, that I am in a funk. I have been in a really gnarly place lately. I’m talking abouta very familiar, very unwelcome place where I spent too much of my life in years past, trying to convince everyone including myself that I was doing just fine, thank you very much! I was a woman that worked hard, loved my family and friends, and thought that if I just kept pluggin’ things would get better… somehow, some way.
But they never did. They became worse with each passing year, until I was obsessed about how to die. I believed and listened as the lies were flung around inside of me in the dark. And they all said the same thing:
You are worthless. I hate you. You don’t deserve to be alive.
The lies were so entrenched in my soul and my spirit that I bought them hook, line and sinker. I was broken, feeling hopeless and was losing the battle to stop hurting myself with my words and actions…
I simply couldn’t find a way to hang on any longer.
Then I learned about the POWER of Truth:
And there you have it. Simply God.
What I have learned is that God sees the big picture and knows the whole story from beginning to end. I do not.
– Truth is the greatest weapon I have. It’s what kills lies.
TRUTH kills lies!
All of the destructive, soul killing lies that bounce around in my head – wildly out of control –
are DEAD as soon as TRUTH is thrown into the mix.
It’s called FREEDOM. Truth really DOES set us FREE!!
So when those lies start running around causing trouble, I need to remind myself to remember the TRUTH.
And the truth is what God says it is. Period.
Truth that tells you that ‘you are LOVED unconditionally‘, to the moon and back, by the Creator of the Universe!
Truth that SEES me, and yet beckons, ‘Come to me with your weariness and burdens and I will give you REST,’ and ‘Whosoever will, let her come…’
Truth that tells me that He is who He says He is! I am who GOD says I am! The head and NOT the tail!
Truth that willingly climbed onto a tree and chose to love me like no one else ever would.
Its right HERE…when I’m in this place of regret and remorse and shame, that I find this immovable, unrelenting TRUTH… and it brings FREEDOM!
What about YOU? Are you bound by something and its keeping you from God’s best?
Are you struggling to get & stay FREE from something?
What do you do in those moments?